I really want him to go because I've been looking forward to having a chance to catch up with folks like puskunk and alijt as well as letting Hobkin hang out in a new place that's skunk friendly. Plus I'm very proud of him and want to show him off. He needs to defend his "Prettiest Tail" title! But I'm seriously doubtful that I can do the show on my own.
For starters, I'm terrible with directions. I'm worried that I'll get lost driving there, although Matthew assures me he'll get me directions, plus I've been there before (last year for the 2003 skunk show).
Next, Hobkin hates car rides. We've always both of us driven him places--Matthew driving and me holding him to keep him calm. If it's just me, he'll have to be crated, which will incense and stress him.
Then, I have to figure out a way to bundle skunk, pen, blankets, litter pan, extra towels, skunk food, and any miscellaneous items necessary to keep a skunk taken care of for a day into a configuration I can manage all by my puny self. Last year, Matthew dropped me off at the door with Hobkin and a blanket while he went to park, and then lugged the pen and miscellaneous stuff from the lot to the site. He then set everything up while I held Hobkin because I am such a wuss. Without him to assist I'm at a loss. I can't leave Hobkin in the car while I cart his pen and blankets and stuff to the site, and I can't leave him alone at the site either. Best case scenario, I could leave him with a friendly skunk person while I wrestle with his stuff, but then I'd have to crate him for a while. I might be able to get everything bundled onto a wheeled luggage cart or something to make a single trip of it, but I don't have a cart and I can't imagine how I'd go about doing that. The rover gate pen itself is several large, unwieldy, bulky pieces, and the litter pan is the enclosed variety, also large, unwieldy, and bulky.
And last, but not least, I get hit by social anxiety in new surroundings. It's relatively mild as far as anxiety issues goes, and it never manifests when Matthew's with me, but it tends to overwhelm me when I'm on my own.
Dammit. I'd hate to miss the skunk show, but I see myself becoming totally stressed and having a meltdown. I don't know what to do.
Received the contract from the Cricket folks for "The Tax Collector's Cow." Still don't know if it'll end up being in Cricket of Spider, but I'm glad to have another contract in!