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Yesterday was a good day. Aside from a bit tired, felt the best I had in months: no pain, no sickness, engaged and focused at work. A memory of what being healthy–well, as healthy as my human suit gets–was like.

This morning, thought I was going to have another good day. Felt energetic and chipper, pain free. Went out with Matthew to run a couple errands even. But think I might have overdone it. We were only out for an hour or so, but by the time we got home I had a headache and started feeling sick. Now I am thoroughly miserable and hurting.

Have taken drugs. Many many drugs. If they are helping, then I don’t even want to contemplate how awful I’d feel without them. But honestly, it feels like they’re barely making a dent.

Originally published at EugieFoster.com. You can comment here or there.

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On November 23rd, 2013 11:56 pm (UTC), threeoutside commented:
I'm so sorry you have to put up with it. I wish hugs could help. Well, maybe a little bit. Just in case:

ME ---> (***hugs***) X (1,000) ---> YOU
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On November 24th, 2013 04:26 pm (UTC), eugie replied:
*hugs* Thanks, sweetie.
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On November 24th, 2013 03:52 am (UTC), jmward14 commented:
Hugs. Just hugs. And lots of healing wishes.
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On November 24th, 2013 04:26 pm (UTC), eugie replied:
Much appreciated. *hugs*
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On November 24th, 2013 04:19 pm (UTC), jaylake commented:
Went out with Matthew to run a couple errands even.

One of my most basic rules when in treatment is "never shotgun errands." Go out, do something, come home, rest, see how I feel.

It's annoying as hell, especially if you have even the most rudimentary sense of time and resource management (as I am sure you do), but it's an excellent way to protect yourself.
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On November 24th, 2013 04:29 pm (UTC), eugie replied:
Sigh. When I was feeling good, it was so easy to forget how frail I guess I actually am. Yeah, I've learned the necessity of pacing myself the hard way. I'm still suffering the repercussions of yesterday's overdoing it. So frustrating!
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On November 24th, 2013 04:35 pm (UTC), jaylake replied:
Oh, yeah, I know. And that frustration borders on the poisonous. But overdoing it is worse, really, I swear.

Damned spoons.
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